eyes

As webster Dictionary describes Eyes
Used to describe the power of someones vision, and in descriptions of the manner of the direction of someones gaze.

As I was laying on the grass atop the 8th floor of the Jerusalem Center (JC) I had my face burried in my arms with my eyes closed, my nose brushing against the warm damp grass smelling the all to familiar smells of home. Not only were the smells familiar but the sounds, the birds chirping, the occasional crow letting out an ugly....crow, and the sounds of the hustle and bustle of the neighborhood directly below me. Now if I had just been placed on that hill of grass not knowing my ware abouts I would feel safe; almost as if I was laying on my own grass on Roueche Lane. It's when my eyes flick open restoring my vision and the direction of my gaze catches the gloden glimmer of the Dome of the Rock that I come to realize I'm somewhere else. I realized today at the moment my eyes flicked open that I have had my eyes closed for the past month. They've been closed by "The Man," the outside world and it's forces that place nothing but stress and frenzy in my short life. Here I am in the most traveled to country in the world, studying the bible, archaeology, and the histories of Judaism and Palestinians and all I can think about is

• Classes I need to take when I get back to school
• Where to live next fall
• Do I need to get a Job next fall?
• What's going on back home?
• Do I need to stay in and do homework in order to get good grades, in order to have a good GPA in order to possibly transfer to BYU provo?
  

Do you see what I mean? My priorities are so skewed. This month has had it's moments of enlightenment, it's moments of deep desire to "open my eyes" but I haven't done a thing about it. Even though there are times where my eyes have been opened the man just sticks the blinders back on. It's a cycle that literally will eat you alive. It's bad when I decide to stay in the center to study when I could be out doing far better "studying" on the streets with real life people who can actually give me apart of themselves that I don't have the desire to get from books. So here is what I say to that
STICK IT TO THE MAN!!!
I write this for the public to see so, that I have an obligation to myself to "do what I want" I know I don't want to stay in and study when I could be out meeting a family of Israelies who invite me to dinner. For if my eyes are closed, my choices are altered, and my blessing from God are also Altered. Not in a bad way but it's the idea of Good, better, best....
STICK IT TO THE MAN!!